I knew that Governor Gina Raimondo had announced a two week pause starting November 30th and that there were growing concerns about hospital capacity here in Rhode Island. But when I got this alert pushed to my phone Monday morning like everyone else in the state, it became very real again.
I knew there was discussion about opening a field hospital in Rhode Island. But when I saw that the lead story on one of the national morning news shows was an interview with the field hospital director on opening day December 1st, it became very real again.
I knew that our ED at the largest hospital in the state was at a breaking point as I have been following Dr. Megan Ranney closely on social media in recent weeks. But when I heard her describe what it is like in the ED on this week’s In the Bubble podcast with Andy Slavitt – “Following One Shift in the COVID-19 Unit”, it became very real again. Listening to her describe mentally getting ready for her shift, donning and doffing layers of PPE that is worn the entire shift, assessing and admitting very sick patients, calling families with updates, and heading out the door with her physically exhausted co-workers at the end of a long shift, I came to appreciate even more what our frontline healthcare workers are doing 24×7 in hospitals across the country.
I am not a denialist. Quite the opposite. I have taken this virus seriously since the start. I wear a mask whenever I’m out and can’t be socially distanced. I keep a journal of all our outings and contacts. I have the Crush Covid RI app that includes a location tracker diary for the past 20 days on my phone. I have watched many news stories, read many articles, and listened to many podcasts in the past 9 months. I feel very educated and informed. And at times, I feel very sad – so many stories have brought me to tears.
When I hear about new restrictions in my state, I typically tell my husband no change for us, we’re already living that way.
But it hit me different this week. Continue reading